8th`kryptonite

My love, my toughts, my heart.

2011-02-03T00:46:00.014+08:00

"what is love to you?"

We were like two parallel lines on a white sheet. Never came across that we will be meant for each other.

but. we were given a chance to chance upon.

We drew new lines and we collided.

We drew more than just lines. Alphabets started emerging, words formed and stringed into sentences.

I began holding your hands to draw shapes, symbols and then pictures, holding mine back we took turns.

You gazed into my eyes, telling me. I embraced, we kissed and paint colours.

--

I am the wind you said, indeed i felt.

Not just any other breeze, one which full with vigor and ain't going to slow down at any point of time just yet. Storm into peoples lives by surprise and leaving without a trace not even a thought of stopping by.

You are kinda like the sand.

You are full of hurricanes and uncertainty, there's so much craziness surrounding you, there's so much going on it gets hard to breathe. You been there for long, awaiting & hoping one day someone would just bring you along for eternity.

I came by and my heart felt warmth. You slowed me down. I picked you up with you holding onto me and onwards to somewhat eternity.

"when all my faith has gone you bring it back to me, you make it real for me."

-

In this love, i expect nothing more or nothing less from you but just that you don't go breaking my heart. I embrace this love of all its flaws and obstacles to come and form the word everlasting in our dictionary, our journey, our story. Making you feel so beautiful so loved in every moment. I do all it takes to lit a smile on your face and those adorable eyes gazing into mine never failed to melted my heart each time.

My sweetheart, my bestfriend, my listening ear, my companion, my cherished, my girlfriend, my love.

loves always,
Jin

2010-09-17T02:05:00.003+08:00

Never did I expect the seal years ago opening up to you.

Fell right through it. Several fracture bones and it hurts, cage of the ribs. Didn't see it coming, really.

Was roughing the terrains, wielding gun powder and commanding a million troops. It isn't time for gaia to recieve just yet.

Heart Broken

2010-09-10T06:01:00.003+08:00

It has been a really long while since i last updated.

How heart-broken can a girl be? For which I truely understand at this moment.

Simplicity spells a million things, one sentence will just do. Perhaps. We never knew. Had been running on that start line.

Looking back at my previous post, "9 months, another phase of army, prolly the toughest one it ever gets." 9 months - I must say it was fulfilling, shaping up the character and multiplication of stress tolerance by several folds, grewing stronger.

2009-09-18T22:49:00.002+08:00

NRIC:S8919261G
Name:BEH HUAT JIN

Your Posting Order is listed below:

1.You are posted to
OCS (ARMY WING).

2.Your vocation is
OFFICER CADET (CBT).

3. Your are to report to:
SAFTI Military Institute, Warrior's Hall.

Reporting Date/Time:
22/09/2009 at 0700 to 0800 hrs.

Felt uber relieve upon seeing this. Was mentally prepared to be posted to SISPEC at that point of time. 9 months, another phase of army, prolly the toughest one it ever gets.

Tough moments.

2009-09-16T19:43:00.004+08:00

We remember tough moments more than any

Looking at it right now, i ought to have done better in my role during the couple of days in SPU camp. Loosing my touch on impacting people minds. Day 1 was a total mistake, should have been what i used to be - the fucker of the team. and conducting personal one to one talks to certain people during the night. Not having tough moments, this camp experience prolly would be forgotten down the road.

Without much pain and agony, there woundnt been any memories worth remembering how tough and tideous the journey was and one have grown so much looking back.

As for that, thats it for which i am done for. I am sure the seniors will remember the days, those feeling how much we wanted out from a competition and channel those emotions to the juniors, burning their flames like never before.

SPU for GHS and IVP.

Tell me the good news, share the joy.
I will be laughing my way till sbw.

That Guy Holding His Boots

2009-08-29T22:12:00.003+08:00

A foreign worker holding his new boots, almost similiar to a kid with his new toy.

We crack jokes about them, despise on their actions.

Perhaps we should just quit doing that and question ourselves about his life for once. For which i knew, i did it today. We are all just alike. Dream chasers arn't we?

A man whom lost his big pal which lost his hind leg that stood by him.

Saw a familiar man at his usual seat, his big pal isn't there, beside him was a new face instead. I assumed - his big pal was prolly gone. Feeling how would he had felt on that sorrow moment.

This weird side. A stranger's smile could be so heartwarming.

Oh yes. 090909 - Passing Out Parade is so near. I could simply smell it right now and tasting it so soon. Ain't sure if i make the cut for OCS but i hope i do. Uhh man.

a month left

2009-08-10T12:23:00.002+08:00

At a glance, army days flew by two months.

Just merely four weeks left to Passing-Out-Parade.

For our love ones whom love us too.

when we were young

2009-08-08T21:59:00.002+08:00

kids bring smiles.

the last time when
girls chase boys down the field.
screaming, yelling as they ran.
running freely with those laughter down the line.

Ever thought of the differences in purpose between kids and us running?

Purpose

2009-08-02T01:07:00.001+08:00

Theres a purpose for everything you do, find it, ask yourself.

That Orange Sky

2009-07-24T22:42:00.003+08:00

Came out today. Back in Tomorrow.

Will be going through the worst part during BMT in Tekong this booking in for the week - 5 days 4 nights Outfield camp. Ironically soldiers tend to say this is the most memorable phase. The strain could be even felt taking its troll on me during both 2 days training/skill equip during the past week, esp heat exhuastion with body core temp hits 37.4 degrees. How much both mentally and physically will be tested.

Oh yes. My fav. song in army.

Early in the morning march,
With a fieldpack on my back.
With an aching in my heart,
And my shirt is full of sweat.

I'm a long long way from home
and i miss my lover so

Early in the morning march,
When the cold wind blows. (x 4)

I know i know.
You have to go.
So hurry back home
cause i miss you so.

I know i know.
I have to go.
So hurry back home
cause you miss me so.

2 weeks in Tekong

2009-06-29T08:57:00.002+08:00

Coy/Platoon/Section/Bed: QueBac/4/2/04 (Q4204)

So many differences of different individuals coming together to form this platoon that i am in. Not that good of what i had imagined. BUT it will be really intresting to experience how this gonna work out and being strong as a whole to survive whats installed for us for the next two months.

The first two days in Tekong passed rather slowly. Each minute seems as if they dreaded to pass by for which my toughts were still across the sea.

As far as that goes, time flys right now. We were loaded with physical activties everyday while looking towards to every meal time for the day. I can feel my fitness level is of a different level now. Grins. Oh yes, i felt myself growing fatter too. Ha! The food inside army is pretty good lah! One and a half palm size of rice, meat, seafood, vege, soup, fruit and sweeten drinks. At times i am even able to eat up to two servings and their serving are pretty huge! Bye ribcages and say hello to nicer chest and abs. HA!

During the next book in. Things gonna be hellish for the sergeants will not be giving anymore honeymoon attitude after our adaption of this two weeks. Urghh. Hold onto my vision and work towards it.

Is not what you have left behind.

Army

2009-06-15T09:30:00.004+08:00

7 hangers,
Swimming Googles,
Alarm Clock,
Nail Clipper,
Inexpensive Watch,
Toilerties,
Clothes washing powder,
A small Lock
and
A dozen of Undergarments

Geared up and ready to serve the nation. Free chalet stay and food with a monthly allowance of 400 bucks. A bunch of new social ring friends, praying hard no gay shiets inside. Free firearms training. Free professional daily workouts. What else is better than this awesome retreat sponsored by the government?

Take care people and don't miss me losers! Ha!

Ciaos!

Those kids.

2009-06-12T02:21:00.004+08:00

I thought i would never set my eyes on them no longer. Just yet, recently they look so young in my eyes once again.

I have poured so much emotions in those kids. I had no tools except those emotions been driving me, hoping those kids see what i do see.

Emotions are a real great deal. It went beyond what i could handle ending up litterally comsumed by it. I took a look at those visions i once had, all so hazy. Couldn't feel those twinkle in the kids anymore. I thought that was it.

Perhaps i should have feel what they felt. Right now it all dosen't matter. Cause they were all so young again. Showering those emotions are worthwhile overall. Else i would not have felt so blessed right now with them part of my life and can't bear to leave for this period of time.

I do appreciate just that i couldn't express.

Saw this quote somewhere quite sometime ago.

"If you don't invest very much, then defeat doesn't hurt very much and winning is not very exciting."

Lay Down

2009-06-03T23:56:00.002+08:00

Everything the eyes been through.Its time.

Rest those wide shoulders. Lay everything down.

My stripe came off.

Enlistment.

2009-06-02T20:46:00.002+08:00

I don't feel really good right now upon reciving my enlistment letter. It reads 15 June 2009 at 2.00PM. This came in way too abrupt. It feels like there are still many things yet to be done. 12 days. Thats it.

If i were given a chance to turn back time. I would reset it three years back or perhaps the entire 20 years. I live my life with too much regrets. Or perhaps all these regrets contribute to what i experience for what i am now.

After reading what i type. It seems as if i am going to die and posting for my last time. Ha!

Graduation

2009-05-26T01:01:00.002+08:00

Going to be in graduation robe on wednesday. Looking back, yesterday was just like Year 1 Day 1. So much to type on. Prolly saving them for the post after graduation.

Pulled my left shoulder muscle pretty badly the day before when working on dumbbells. Feeling handicap right now, cant raise that arm properly. Ha!

2009-05-22T02:04:00.002+08:00

A Muffin and a Can of Beer.

The beer tastes awkwardly bitter.

I know there's really nothin' left to say

2009-05-17T16:48:00.003+08:00

Come Back To Me- David Cook

Finally found his music video. Kinda nice one.

flame

2009-05-16T03:35:00.004+08:00

The new bunch of SP Ultimate players are kinda awesome. Those players made me feel edgy and excited all over again. Especially several of them. No idea on their names yet but i guess i will be able to manage out their faces. Those eager flames awaiting to be lit, one thing i possibily imagine - they gonna surpass. For which i counldnt grasp and behold what lies ahead for them thinking bout it.

Perhaps this season SP Ultimate gonna bring it all home.

Man.. this feeling is incredible. I thought i loose it for good.

2009-05-08T22:11:00.001+08:00

Come Back To Me - David Cook

You say you gotta go and find yourself
You say that you're becoming someone else
Don't recognize the face in the mirror
Looking back at you

You say you're leavin'
As you look away
I know there's really nothin' left to say
Just know I'm here
Whenever you need me
I'll wait for you

So I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you come back to me

Take your time, I won't go anywhere
Picture you with the wind in your hair
I'll keep your things right where you left them
I'll be here for you

Oh, and I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

I can't get close if you're not there
I can't get inside if there's no soul to bear
I can't fix you, I can't save you
It's something you have to do

So I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me
Come back to me
So I'll let you go
I'll set you free
And when you see what you need to see
When you find you, come back to me

And I hope you find everything that you need
I'll be right here waiting to see
You find you, come back to me

When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me
When you find you, come back to me

Weak!

2009-05-08T01:08:00.003+08:00

Its been kinda long since i left the Ultimate world.

It dosent feels right throwing those discs and catching them. It seems as if your brain dont send the correct signal to your muscles to match those actions. My lungs aint pumping that hard. God damnit. I am weak. Urgh.

Right now. My legs feels like dying. I wonder those fleshy things in my calves are still muscles. Ha! My fingers aint those tough nut skin anymore. Boo! Bad.

What twinkles in me now. Those are my fuel, effort.

Water Chestnut

2009-05-04T21:00:00.005+08:00

When someone mention Water Chestnut. What first comes into your head?

The brown outside, the inside white or the juice? Ha!

Celebrated BaiYu's 21st two days ago. I tell you. The cake is awesome. Had some really good laughs and Alan got owned by a bat. Oh yeah, i didnt know that lizards do make sounds till i learn about it that day. Ha!

Back to school for CCA drive. Time to get a new bunch of talents for SP Ultimate.

Self

2009-04-29T22:14:00.007+08:00

Reflecting on certain issues i handled these few years. Perhaps i did not handle them at all, merely trying to walk out from the situation without words.

Known.

Been so selfish to several people some issues some matters.

Why couldn't?

Explain than keeping it to self. Those reasons may mean so much to the situation. Clarification still matters? If it does, will do.

Omg. I wish i am crafted to be a better man ahead.

Urgh. Misses school. Yet to find a temp job and i ma running out of funds. Most of the guys got their enlistment dates already but not me tho. If i were to be exempted, my study/carrer life would be 2 years ahead. How nice. yeah yeah.. Big FAT hopes. Ha!

Hives

2009-04-21T22:31:00.002+08:00

Strike by Hives two days ago, a kind of rashes not those bee hives. I tell you its really damn horrible. The itch is 4812748 times worse than chicken pox. It seems as if you got bitten by mosquitoes at an area for a hundred times. I thought i was goner, getting bacteria infection in my blood when i yet to know the condition i am suffering from are Hives. Ha!

Symptoms of Hives
In addition to their typical appearance as red or pink raised areas on your child's skin, hives are usually:

- itchy
- seen alone or are in groups
- varied in size, with some being smaller than your child's finger tip and other's larger than a half-dollar size. Also, hives can often merge or join to form even larger hives that, for example, can cover half of your child's abdomen.
- temporary and come and go over several hours. They often don't go away completely though. Instead, old hives go away in one part of your child's body, while new ones continue to appear somewhere else. Any individual hive shouldn't last more than 24 hours. If it does, then your child may have a similar skin rash, such as erythema multiforme, and not simple hives.

Luckily my Hives condition lasted for 1 day and a half, some suffer for months. No scars or whatsoever, thank god! ha!

Dreams

2009-04-10T08:14:00.005+08:00

When reality is tough, we slip into our dreams.

So tough. so tough. My soles are worn.
I took a peek at the signboard. It reads '598901826891131 miles'

Capture an image.

What the. Why am i holding a camera.

So tough. so tough that you know this is just a dream itself.

Listen

2009-03-27T17:35:00.003+08:00

Pick up the headset, be still and listen. Press them against your ears and feel. Just be still and feel for everything could be at it's last moments.

It's different

from the speakers.

Earth Hour

2009-03-22T21:12:00.006+08:00

We all have a vote, and every single vote counts. Together we can take control of the future of our planet, for future generations.

VOTE EARTH by simply switching off your lights for one hour, and join the world for Earth Hour.

It's just an hour of your part for which you have taken uncountables from Earth.

Understand more at http://www.earthhour.org/home/

Sunkissed

2009-03-21T21:57:00.003+08:00

Nothing beats the feeling of being sunkissed.

Nothing sucks more than the after effects of being sunburnt.

Oh well..

2009-03-20T22:38:00.003+08:00

I would just pack my bag and go backpacking. A camera or perhaps just my eyes.

I kissed dating goodbye

2009-03-19T10:12:00.006+08:00

Your answer was still God himself, your love for Christ.

"I kissed dating goodbye" by Joshua Harris you told me.

Heartbroken, I was not. It seems like the beam which I had my feet on; that yesterday I once used to worried on the sides which I will be falling off was not that narrow after all, so wide that it stretches across the horizon for I could see clearly now. Sides were created when thoughts closes in. Freeing those thoughts eases uncertainties. It feels as if my heart was being reset openly.

I am really glad and have not regretted taking that leap to send you the letter. For which now I am able to understand and comprehend what is driving you on the other side. You raised some questions in general on the other hand though.

I ain't sure will you be reading this. Really appreciate for your reply.

We all move on. Moving on from this moment.

Significance

2009-03-16T23:56:00.006+08:00

Yellow - Coldplay

look at de stars,
Look how they shine for you,
And everything you do,
Yeah they were all yellow

I came along
I wrote a song for you
And all the things you do
And it was called yellow

So then I took my turn
Oh all the things I've done
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know you know I love you so
You know I love you so

I swam across
I jumped across for you
Oh all the things you do
Cause you were all yellow

I drew a line
I drew a line for you
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow

Your skin
Oh yeah your skin and bones
Turn into something beautiful
D'you know for you i bleed myself dry
For you i bleed myself dry

Its true look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine for you
look how they shine
look at the stars look how they shine for you

This seems like the most foolish thing i ever done, prolly. I said my piece. I hope it got its significance for which i walked a million miles following my heart.

Hibernate. Escape from all the thoughts which could possibly drown while waiting for your reply if it does ever come, its all that matters; freeing me from all the uncertainties and thoughts. Which side of this beam will i fall off from.

Are we loved to be love again?

2009-03-13T21:31:00.004+08:00

I am so gonna go crazy and do crazy stuffs with crazy people if we were to have a crazy outing. Ha! I don't mind loosing face for one day to invoke the good old days. Boo! ha!

Need to get my long and messy hair snap snap snap.

Extracted out from cassy blog.

Swensens with the twins, alan, jin, linus, pau & wt. Caught Marley & Me at MS, and jin was being dumb as usual. Dont know if he was just pretending or was it real, he actually said this.

jin: "wha marley sooo pretty!"

He thought Jennifer Aniston was marley HAHAHAHA!

Ha! Really laughing my ass off when i read that. boo!

what a ride

2009-03-12T12:43:00.002+08:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=61493

That is what happen to me yesterday while on my way back home. So much for my first day out after two weeks. I bet those happy ones will be the cab drivers. Ha! oh well..

2009-03-10T23:52:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be the first time stepping out of my house for the past two weeks.

i ain't got a single clue on your side. but i will just go ahead and let you know whats on mine.

2009-03-09T14:22:00.005+08:00

Pieces of it which you engraved so deeply years back seems to be a vivid recollection all this years that went by. So many seasons came and went. For now i ain't sure bout you - everything. Every now and then pondering on how would this letter end up when it lays onto your hands. It i were to mail it. Would you even care for you that have already moved on? i wondered.

For what we never try, we never knew. You gotta start growing some balls, jin. Else just keep holding it to yourself like the way you been holding on to yourself for all this while.

Leaf, bits, letters.

Chicken Pox

2009-03-06T00:16:00.002+08:00

Was diagnose with chicken pox on 24/02/2009. Finally. Ater living for 20 years. thought i would never ever get it in my life. Boo. So wrong. On the road to recovery now. Pox is damn horrible. Freaking scarred your face, body, ass, limbs or rather wherever it blisters upon. Those scars ain't normal man. It freaking leaves a crater/hole on your skin. Urgh.

Got pox, can't go anywhere, quarantine at home. Everyday is a same old routine. Spending my day on the net. My chair gotten itself a serious dent, my keyboard wordings faded. Ha!

At least but at least, it started me thinking of matters dated as old as several years back.

Sending you a letter, holding back for years.

Seems like it never ever gotten over.

Update again tomorrow morning. Heading to bed.

Found it

2009-01-23T02:47:00.003+08:00

Its 3am right now, blogging.

Right now i pray that you dont get into things hastily. Don't get blinded by words. Its not only you. Think about - is there others? As i know how easily can it gets to have someone blinded.

Truely, as a friend. Nothing else.

2009-01-10T22:51:00.003+08:00

"You just tired and need peace and rest. Think you break first then
come back. "

Prolly, maybe, perhaps. Still cant get myself out from this state. The feel. Five days, just five more days. A choice, a decision.

and the skies are not cloudy all day

2009-01-04T00:09:00.003+08:00

lol. what a joke

Wrinkle

2008-12-26T21:50:00.003+08:00

Feel this wrinkle, take a closer look.

Sometimes i wish i was a better person. How many strands of white hair since the last time i visited grandma. Used to share a bottle of Pepsi with her while she puff the smoke away, every night spent at the hawker center when i was like age of four? Ha! Those were the old times.

I wonder do ever people look back into your eyes when you are looking at them. Its not just a line of admiration. Looking back and feel, thinking and understanding your thoughts on that moment. Did you notice the wrinkle beside it? It just get deeper each time when i think and worry on it. Feel it when it shows, it tells you.

I hate this part - Pussycat Dolls

We're driving slow through the snow on 5th Avenue
And right now radio's all that we can hear
Now we ain't talk since we left, it's so over due
It's cold outside but between us its worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday, 7 takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the loss of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now before we go to sleep
But will you sleep once I tell you with hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here
I know you'll ask me to hold on

And carry on like nothing's wrong
But there is no more time for lies'
Cause I see sunset in your eyes
I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers
I don't wanna try now
All that's left is good-bye
To find a way that I can tell you

That I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it
I hate this part
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it,
I gotta do it

I hate this part right here
And I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

Not the surface of the words.

it kept dying

2008-10-26T09:23:00.004+08:00

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe it

Feelings. Effective Interpersonal Communication - one of the modules this semester.

update soon

you people been waiting for this post

2008-09-15T14:27:00.003+08:00

My heart's crippled by the vein

'i can oni say if u continue usin this method of teachin..soon u will lose more n more respect cos u alr LOST some of em ..i know writin this is useless cos ur stubborness wun change n u always fuck care wat ppl say n feel cos u oways think the way of ur thinkin n method is right..i oso tired of tellin u, doin this n that is wron..cos u jus wun listen n i will b jus wastin my saliva away..
if oni u try to put urself in other shoes then mayb u will undstd but i doubt so..nvm jus let all of us "get used to it"..'

Extract from angela blog

'u think y they can tak in mj method but not rlly ur method'

'cos the words u say to em is rather demoralisin em undtsd?'

'u mus oways put urself in other shoes'

'in the meantime u scold oso in the meantime let em feel appreciated k?'

Extract from msn convo

Seen it coming before it even came. Since i had choosen the negative path image. Dont grow under me if u dont wish to.

You think its fun and enjoyable to be the negative pusher of the club? You think it feels good to scold and demoralise you people? You think i like it when people started bullshitting about me? You think i like to lose whatever shit respect?

Did you use your brains and think before you started typing? YOU THINK I REALLY WANT IT THAT WAY!? Who the hell dosen't likes to be a nice easy going coach so he can save all the respect from all the people he wants. Enjoy each other jokes on field where everything is relax, you need a rest you get it, you wana slack go ahead.

You made me felt like a clown when i thought of why didn't i do that. You don't need to endure my bullshits and i ain't need to worry about my respect factor. BUT for what fking GODSAKE i did the negative pushing?! FK! Why HUAT JIN IS SO FKING STUPID LIKE A FOOL. Hes so stupid to risk his image? you wana grow anot is your problem what, if i never screw u we still be friends and i still have ur respect! WTF so nice! Fk i am so stupid. __

Put myself in your shoes? Is there a need to? Don't forget i got outside training, i get screwed likewise you do here. You think i dont know how it feels? You think i never experience before? You think i come SPU to take what i have bear through outside and unleash it in you guys?

Why not you whoever who feels that way and quit being such a brat and put in MY SHOES. Feels how is it like to handle all of you, my right hand man, my officer and those people looking at SPU. Feels how is it like to handle to much things which u all never knew i did for SPU. Feels how is it like losing sleep to think on how to improve and motivate each of you. Feels how to make everyone happy in a team. Feels how to see whether what i decided is right. AND feels how it feels not abling to list all the shits down that i wanted u all to feel. YOU THINK IS FKING EASY TO WEAR THIS SHOW? You try la. Whoever you are. Come try putting on my F up shoes? So power sia.

'in the meantime u scold oso in the meantime let em feel appreciated k?' - appreciated? How many of times people praise and make you feel appreciated like so easily out from their mouth? I also can say say what, i can make u happy then ur respect for me can even be higher. SO GOOD MAN. but did i ever do that? yes but hardly comes by. If i mention anything through motivation or personal talks that is GENUINE. Saying that i never appreciate you guys? You all got appreciate me? Instead of bullshitting me? Ever appreaciated me? EVER ANOT?! Did i even request for anything from you all? nothing except your growth. wtf sia serisously.

When i say that you are lousy or weak in any factors. That is fking GENUINE. YES you are LOUSY. What for i want to say/suan/demoralise u? I want to fking pick up that CHALLENGE and prove me FKING WRONG. Its for ur own fking good sake for fking god sake. Did you prove me? DID YOU instead of starting to bullshit me. Everyone can speak nice things. Its so fking easy, no fkign challenge. You said i never care bout how ppl care and feel. Dont make me laugh. Looking on just the surface. YAYA u are right! I dont care! yeah! i am such an asshole!

You and whoever angela is refering to. You all made me feel really sick and tired on the sad fact that you guys just went huat jin this huat jin that and whats worse started spreading like wildfire. I don't need your pity, i don't need to gain back any respect of yours. Thats all i wana say.

I never hold back opportunities of growth. If u have an expectation to live on, you believe in yourself and me, i will rise it for you. Dont grow under me if u dont wish to.

Project Freedom

2008-08-28T03:14:00.003+08:00

Ha! So OMG! Its like 3.16am now and i go the feel to blog. Such weird timing. I am done with exams, like FINALLY can? I am so craving for coffee bean now - mocha ice blended with cream. I think i gonna tag someone along to get it.

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Oh yah. Perhaps update a little on the past weeks. I gotten myself a new name - George. Ha! My outside ultimate frisbee team got this very tall brothers (not twins) - Karsten & Steinar.

During my training i was like

Huat Jin: "Wow! Good Job Karsten!" (Steinar actually, called the wrong name)
Huat Jin: "Shit! I mean Steinar. Sorry!"
Steinar: "No worries, George."

I was like wtf and laughing all the way, his reaction to counter back the situation is uber fast. Now people in the team started naming me George. ha!

Last friday was damn funny with mum and bai yu. Mark got fake by me. Ha! Ahh.. today is bai yu last day of studying in SP already. Next sem gonna miss out alot of jokes without her. I bet she enjoys herself with us for this sem. Maybe next time see her, she made alot of babies with lester already. Who knows uh? Ha!

-

This weekends - Singapore Opens! Time to own some asses on field with layout Ds. Come down and watch ok? Ultimate Frisbee teams from different countries come and compete! @ Farrer Park. Getting so excited.

-

Someone said i am a ~~big bully~~ BIG BULLY. Ha!

be there

2008-08-12T01:21:00.003+08:00

things kiss up, seems pretty good now :)

stickwitu - a song for you

2008-08-11T12:18:00.003+08:00

The Pussycat Dolls Stickwitu lyrics 2005

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
Throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say [Hey]

Nobody's gonna love me better
I'ma stick wit you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'ma stick wit you
You know how to appreciate me
I'ma stick wit you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'ma stick wit you

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride
In our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me [one for me]
What I'm saying

Nobody gonna love me better
I'ma stick wit you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'ma stick wit you [nobody]
You know how to appreciate me
I'ma stick wit you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'ma stick wit you

And now
Ain't nothing else I can need [nothing else I can need]
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you
We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (Baby, I'm with you baby)
Baby, you're with me (Baby, You're with me)

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts

So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's, that's why I say, hey

Nobody gonna love me better
I'ma stick wit you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'ma stick wit you
You know how to appreciate me
I'ma stick wit you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'ma stick wit you

Nobody gonna love me better
I'ma stick wit you
Forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I'ma stick wit you
You know how to appreciate me
I'ma stick wit you
My baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I'ma stick wit you

I ma sorry, really sorry to make things turn out this way. I got lots to say too.

2008-08-11T00:38:00.001+08:00

2 days.

Candle

2008-08-09T19:01:00.002+08:00

Its like a burning candle. What do your see in it?

I guess i am pretty much not ready. What i'm looking for is being clouded, just couldnt get it. Its gonna be rocky i foresee? I am tired, a boat that sails smoothly and supports me on our journey is what i need and i will be yours the other way round too. Otherwise i swim alone, I don't really mind. I ain't sure, ain't sure. Perhaps that is too much to ask for.

Just like the wind
or rather,
a burning candle

Poly 50; CLS is love

2008-08-07T10:09:00.002+08:00

its always been as good as ever
two years back or now
despite the disputes at times
the up and the downs
we are still one big family
the number keeps growing
we are so gonna leave soon
i hope by then it dosent marks the end

Poly 50 ended just like that. 50 laps, 10 runners and one aim. My team came off 14th, pretty much ok. Simply hope it could just hit in the top 10 catergory, i would just so run so much harder. 6 CLS teams - 4th, 7th, 8th, 14th, 15th and 23rd.

I think i knock 4 persons down in total during the race and i am sure at least 2 were girls. So sorry. Hope they would be alrights.

My stupid tag gave way to the weight when i ran the 1st stretch. I was like WTH. This year tag was so heavy, 3 of the pins literally snap out. Thanks to all the people whom tried to put my tag back on and sorry if i was a little nasty tho. So tiring.

I will upload the tonnes of photos taken very soon on the next post :)

seems like somthing dosen't feels right

Stiches Required

2008-08-02T21:25:00.003+08:00

Cobwebs all over my blog and did not spare some of my friends blog too. Ha! Give me more time to change the gay shit of this design. Got no inspiration and time now.

4 more weeks to Singapore Opens. Not much time to train yet studies are catching up uh. End sem exam coming in like 3 weeks time. Been building up my self aggro for ultimate frisbee and i am getting hungier for the disc each time. I need more layout Ds to satisfy the desire.

Todays training left my leggings compression under armour with a hole at the knee cap. 2nd time usage only. FREAK! sim thia! BOO! Layout and impacted my knee, torn the leggings and left my knee with a nasty abrasion. Now stiches are required for the poor leggings. Nearly landed on my spine again when skying for the disc again at scoring. Lucikly at the butt this time, i think its out of shape now. Ha!

how annoying (:
If i just do know whats on the other side.
Just like the wind, you get what i mean.

Cheerios

2008-06-27T23:31:00.002+08:00

MST week has ended, i think i survive this battle - it better be. So much for last minute doggy style uh, i mean underdog. Ha! Kinda happy now uhhhhhhhhh. Oh well, still got tonnes of projects and reports to be completed and FYP. Makes me feel shity, oh godd.

Ultimate Frisbee back on track. Kinda got burned under the sun during training, can feel the facial skin getting tight down there. 2 weeks facing books and indoors, it feels good to be out in the sun again.

Went to eat laksa steamboat today located at Holland V. Kinda good but not worth for the price uhh. The steamboat its like how much u order u pay that much, still prefer those eat all u can at this price. Ha! Went Häagen-Dazs to chill out with the same old faces afterwhich. All those crappy stuffs as usual. The manager came to talk to us, asking if we wana work part-time for Häagen-Dazs. Kinda nice dude, same goes for the other 2 managers around, very very nice people. Got a few pretty girls working there!! Tempt me to work uhh. Ha! But its like 4.50 bucks an hour, kinda low. Maybe put it as in trade for the pretty girls, i wouldnt mind. Ha!

Theres nothing compared to you

MST FINAL SURGE!

2008-06-26T23:16:00.003+08:00

MST LAST PAPER TOMORROW 8AM - BIOMATERIALS

Feel really good at this point now. My brain had been good today, kinda got all the shits inside pretty fast. Cant wait for tmr and finish up the paper and CHERRIOS.

wish

2008-06-15T01:27:00.003+08:00

Kinda busy. Been committing myself to ultimate frisbee 5 days a week for like the past 2 week holidays. 1 week of holiday left, gotta put all SP Ultimate related stuffs on hold till MST (Mid Sem Test) week - friday. This coming monday class gathering uh. 1 day down, left with only 6 more days to rush 5 modules. Underdog style uh, gotta to rush from scratch. 7 weeks of school totally wasted but hell NO i gonna let myself fail this coming MST.

jin you gotta rush, you have to

Today's Ultimate Frisbee HATs Tourney was good. Toasted my charred complextion once again. ha! Going down to have fun and make new friends. Its kinda good to hear others praising on SP Ultimate people.

Thanks for those who celebrated my birthday. Appreciated for all the gifts and wishes. Esp to DDs which got my underarmour which i really wanted, really really thanks uhhh. Now i gotta wait for the arrival of shipment on elaine's call. Cant wait man. Ha! Kinda realise one thing - did not make a wish during my birthday sia.

If i were to wish.

Meeting you by chance.
Catching up with the years.

Its kinda long - last glimpse.

aint the same no more

2008-06-06T01:40:00.002+08:00

my friends tell me i aint the same no more

Yeah. Kinda eversince i got myself real occupied. Kelly was nagging at me said i ain't that HUAT JIN anymore after being this huat jin. Sorry uhh, hardly anytime for you all. Dont miss the naughty side ok?! It went to rest for just a little while. Ha!

Oh yah. Thanks for all the mega over flowing morale booster. Appreciated it.

Todays training i guess was the best so far. It feels really really good to be teaching in small numbers unlike the usual 30+ to 40+. Those who attended today learn uberr fast luh, win win situation man.

Not fated this week perhaps

sigh

2008-06-03T23:31:00.002+08:00

sometimes it really ponders me. who really understands the intentions. are all the naggings necessary. perhaps i push too hard, maybe thats the case. it shld be. so much of an ambition. perhaps just let what they wana be is the true reslove - excel or remain stagnant, deosent really matter anymore. flames will die off eventually but i wish the strongs one kept burning and lit new ones.

Being trap to the sidelines
Sigh. you ever know?

It feels like - why did i set up this club?

just a piece of plastic

2008-06-02T20:03:00.002+08:00

just a piece of plastic? ha! It means so much more than just that.

First training under Freakshow was fabulous. Its been long since the push factor was last felt, getting off the plateau stage alas. Simply hope to play under them for Sing's Open.

Looking at some of my club members play is just as if looking at ourselves 1 year back then. Ha!

Be inspired and inspire

Mess up

2008-05-31T03:12:00.010+08:00

Alas! Resurrection of the blog. Took kinda long, was really really busy with school. Yes with school but not on the sector of studies. Ha! Ultimate Frisbee and club events fully occupied me. Maybe, blame it on my poor time managment.

The old blog skin was kinda ugghh dull. Whenever i wana start a post the next thing i know is clicking the X button on the top right corner. Its like a impossible task to find nice looking skins which are meant for guys luh, so i just settle with this. Black is still kinda the best expression. Ha!

Oh! I literally fall in love with 'I stay in love - Mariah Carey' just listening to it once. Kinda sweet. Surprisingly ain't came across this song before. Ha! Thanks charlotte heh! Fancy introducing me to it during GEMs lesson man.

Recent Clarke Quay 20/SRRR event

CLS <3>

JumpShots!

My treasure hunt team which won

Wishlist? Underarmour! Duffle Bag, Belt, Tops, Bottoms.. hmm anything. But a nono to things which dosent have a use purpose or perhaps a cute girl. Ha!

kellys cum char bdae

2008-04-08T18:18:00.002+08:00

4/7/2008
11:08:11 PM
K E L L Y * [myjia] 22-10-06
[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - we are same of a kind
announcement!

K E L L Y * [myjia] 22-10-06
[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - we are same of a kind
huat jin's blog is dead as of 25 march 2008, tuesday.

alrights. the red signal. time to revive blog. Ha! was kinda lazy and not knowing where/how to start blogging man when too much things happen. kinda dislike it when use to much brain cells to up a post, would just ending up dlting the post.

ahh.. celebrate kelly's cum char's birthday during sunday. ice skate in the morning, sailing in the noon and dinner at my house for night. very packy day.

its been long since i last ice skate man. feels good to be on the ice again. all DDs ladies cant skate. ha! oh my oh my. kinda fun teaching them, they will go like "no! no! dont!! NOT SO FASTTTT" laughing my arse off man. a compliment for u ladies tho, u girls learn pretty fast. ha!

sailing was gorgeous. split ourselves into 2 groups. i was on the motorboat group 1st then to sailing. freaking fast - 40 horse power, smth like duper uberrr cool. i wana get a license on it man. ha!

my group sail capsized in the middle of the sea halfway man. i saw all of them falling into the water while i was still holding on the edge of the boat and linus sceam "dont hold the boat!". let go off the boat and topple into the water, submerge into the water man then pop out again. ha! kinda blur not knowing what to do then angela told me and what i heard was "swim under the boat to the other side." i was like "siao ah! how can?!" saw linus slipper floating aimlessly on the water and i decided to save it and get out from the capsize boat. luckily everone manage to get out from the boat before it flip over man. thank god, linus and the other 2 seniors manage to flip back the sail after several attempts before it sink man.

3 more days and its gonna be end of attachment. cant wait! but i will miss some of the fellows there. kinda racking on my brain now on how to i express myself on the thank you card. AND i wana see some As grade. week 5 - 9 to be graded this friday, oh my oh my.

i want some good disc action when sch reopens. monday submission of the frisbee club opening club form. its gonna be a success - i hope. ha!

plots

2008-03-25T20:44:00.002+08:00

i took a look at myself and ......
just like the wind ain't wait for long
the returning stab might be the plot
he sees it all with backup plots
otherwise your hand will answer the call.

wanted to blog about sentosa and such 2 days ago. but kinda felt lost when i started typing. maybe i should just use pictures to do it. anwyays, sentosa cum steamboat was a real great gathering. had so much laughs and such, enjoyed it to the maxxx. seems like a got a new bunch of ppl whom i can drink and mahjong with. the older gang got some really active thingy up in every part of them - the night it still young. young with you guys some other times la. ha!

ding dang gathering was like ehh just like that? didnt feel the spicy atmosphere.

suddenly kinda on ice skating mood. maybe i should start askign around whose in for this weekend.

oh yah. last week i thought i really gonna lose 2 mates esther and ting. thank god, things kissed up and fell back into place. and the funny thing is we kinda like those on and off buddies.

WinterLeague

2008-03-09T10:42:00.006+08:00

offcially sunkissed again.

went for the last day of winter wonderleague (frisbee). 6 matches from 9.45am to 5pm odd. My team lost in the finals by a score of 8-9 man. if you guys were there you will realise how dramatic that final match was. my feet were severely CHIU upon hitting the finals - toe nails are breaking, blisters popping out, can't bloody run and burn opponents anymore. ha! my teammates were really good players man. my skill is like just half of theirs, one day i will hit there.

ultimate frisbee players injure their knee caps so easily due to the massive jam breaks they do in the games. seen so many since i started playing frisbee - i will not be surprise if one day i needed surgery for my knee cap too.

we tossed amy into the icebox while we were taking photos for the organising committee, push her head in, seal her up and seat on top of it and took photos for a min odd. ha! darn hilarious. after letting her out we poured the ice away and began stepping on the ice and realised how freaking uber cold the ice were. cant even stand on the ice for 20 secs wonder how amy endure for a min odd. =x

rushed home to wash up and attend the winterleague party at kazbar near fast east square. won a 20 bucks kazbar voucher during the lucky draw. anyhow pick, pick until me. ha! realised there are so many couples in ultimate frisbee. friends and i were discussing how good can it be if we can find one along too, still so many gorgeous one available. ha! =x watching soccer at a bar instead of home is so much different in terms of the atmosphere esp when there is a goal if you get what i mean. ha!

glancing, we knew it best.
esp time to leave.
in your hazy eyes hinting - can we don't say goodbye. so do i

Sat no work

2008-03-06T19:35:00.006+08:00

you can hold my hand if you want to cause I want to hold yours too

Step one, you say we need to talk.
He walks, you say sit down it's just a talk.
He smiles politely back at you,
You stare politely right on through.....

wa lan eh. morning already. *Snooze*

Step one, you say we need to talk.
He walks, you say sit down it's just a talk.
He smiles politely back at you,

*Snooze*

Step one, you say we need to talk.
He walks, you say sit down it's just a talk.
He smiles politely back at you,
You stare politely right on through.....

*Snooze*

Step one, you say we need to talk.
He walks, you say sit down it's just a talk.

*Snooze*

Step one, you say we need to talk.
He walks, you say sit down it's just a talk.

*Snooze*

my morning routine of snoozing my alarm clock. up to seven times each day, 5 mins interval. Ha! how to save a life? when i am so dead in bed. Finally i use my brain a little and decided to set alarm at 7.45am instead of 7.15am snoozing all the way to 7.45am. =/

whats on the company notice board?

wah seh. shiok!

saw this notice and i was like omg? ha! very good news for me man. this weekend will not be so shortlive. ha! i should start planning what to do during this weekend now.

sentosa

2008-03-02T21:10:00.006+08:00

Sentosa outing was great despite the crappy weather. Didn't get my necessary tan done tho. It was like sun is coming out! become dark again. rain again. sun is coming out! dark again. rain again.

Reached the beach and it rained. took shelther and said ghost stories la. Ha! then the sun wana pop out again. went to frisbee abit and play dog and bone with 7 people. Ha! linus cheat man. wana injure potential players. Ha! he scope a pile of sand right into my face.. took quite a long time to wash the sand out from my eyes, too much.

Playing halfway one guy from another group approached us. Ask if we wana join and play together. Ha! why not? why not man. of cause we agreed. Ha! Played Captain's Ball mixing both groups of ppl. Uber fun ok? the best thing is my team win ok? Ha! 1st time see pau and twins got so sweaty. went for a water break then it rain again. took shelter again. and we took photos after the rain went off again.

Esther, Christina, Zhi Wei, Samuel, Daniel, Litong, Lilian, Paula, Alan and me

Edmund the f up

2008-02-26T19:49:00.002+08:00

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel lyrics

When I see your smile,
Tears run down on my face.
I can't replace.
And now that I'm stronger, I have figured out,
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul.
And I know I'll find deep inside me,
I can be the one.

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

It's okay.
It's okay.
It's okay-e-ay-e-ay.

Seasons are changing,
And waves are crashing,
And stars are falling over us.
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter,
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall. (let you fall.)
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all. (through it all.)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

'Cause you're my, you're my, my-e-y-e-y
My true love, my whole heart.
Please don't throw that away.
'Cause I'm here... for you!
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay... here!

Whoa-oh!
Stay!
Whoa-oh!

Use me as you will!
Pull my strings just for a thrill!
And I know I'll be okay,
Though my skies are turning gray! (gray! gray!)

I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven!

I will never let you fall!
I'll stand up with you forever!
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven! (fade out)

Conflict is not normal when u are looking for it.
What the fuck you really want?
Debate simi lan.

Oh my oh my. A few hours from this post gonna be release of results via mail. I really really don't wana forward this f up modules PI and Envt Studies. Signing off here. Re-blogging after results. Good news please.

work

2008-02-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

一眼万年：

泪有点咸有点甜你的胸膛吻着我的侧脸
回头看踏过的雪
慢慢融化成草原
而我就像你没有一秒曾后悔
爱那么绵那么粘
管命运设定要谁离别
海岸线越让人流连
总是美得越蜿蜒
我们太倔强
连天都不忍再反对

深情一眼挚爱万年
几度轮回恋恋不灭
把岁月铺成红毯
见证我们的极限
心疼一句珍藏万年
誓言就该比永远更远
要不是沧海桑田
真爱怎么会浮现

cindy's peabrain says: itp stinks says:
why ur blog suddenly got chinese song one?

[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
LOL
[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
surpise isnt it?
[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
this song old liao
[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
2006 one

cindy's peabrain says: itp stinks says:
haha yah i heard before

[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
i heard it in dad car
[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
then remind me the show i wtach

cindy's peabrain says: itp stinks says:
I KNOW

[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
di gua

cindy's peabrain says: itp stinks says:
THE ANCIENT SHOW RIGHT?

[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
do gua
[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
di

cindy's peabrain says: itp stinks says:
YAH YAH

[ ACA,AIA ] Jin - says:
ROFL

Ha! Hebe's voice <3 If only she could sing to me every night, say goodbye to insomnia.

Work today is darn freaking good too, still lame old packaging for today tho. Chat with the workers there as if i was their friends while working. one 31 year old m'sian guy actually play DOTA man. ROFL. tmr gonna do the same old packaging too. boring...

black donkey

2008-02-19T21:39:00.003+08:00

alrights. i now officially declare that black donkeys in my life has never ever leave a fking good impression on me or not that i remember. latest black donkey i came across is in my workplace, a attacher too. Fking no balls and lazy like a mother fker.

got question no balls to ask the supervisor ask me ask. what are ur balls for? produce to fk other black donkeys? ppl working and u kept sleeping like nobody business. when supervisor comes u pee in ur pants awoke from ur dream. More difficult task, lazy to do beg me to change roles like a beggar. hopeless donkey. where are ur balls? ur freaking minute balls. go inflate it ok?

class gathering, gl gathering and work

2008-02-18T20:58:00.009+08:00

P.S. I love you

Stirring the calm water ok?

Class gathering on saturday.

First time i enjoy so much ok?

Or rather more than usual. Ha!

Held at Qi Feng house. Linus and I gay there late. Upon arrival already already gambling time. Surprisingly and ironically the twins lilian/litong place their share of bets too. So eye opening man. Ling Zhe was the banker with beyond godlike luck, swallow all our money man!

Halfway Linus complain hungry then went down to makan. Buffet and Pizza + talk crap. Went back up took photos and such then indian poker time. Ha! My class are such honest people man, they can't lie or rather quite lousy which i mean real lousy. Ha! Defeat the purpose of the time =x. But we still have alot alot of fun, espcially the forfeit part - CLS Club Style! ha! oh god. Lilian was the lucky girl, got into 75% of the forfeits, our top scorer. The guys which got the forfeit along with her gotta ENDURE indirect kisses man! Ha! first time everybody so dare to play =]

Our class is revolving at last! ALAS! add even more catalyst into the bondings somewhere in the near future ok? cant wait. JOY. ha!

Sunday - GLs gathering at Mark's house. Absent - Edmund, Lawrence and Meiyu. Jungle tracking man, safari style - compass, map, parang sword and such, what a place to live in. Ha! Exaggeration. Its ain't that bad, nice place ok? As usual talk cock sing song play mahjong.

Today work was pretty good. Finally enjoy myself for the first time. Down to get dirty with grease, oil and such. New things learnt, alot of hands on which is a really freaking good thing for me. LIKE FINALLY. Get to interact more with the staffs there. China workers ain't that bad actually? Ha! i dun know. Hope tomorrow time pass as fast as today.

changeover. swirl along

ITP 1st day

2008-02-12T18:39:00.001+08:00

oh god. first day of itp (attachment) was kinda funny ok? Dad drove me to the area and reached there around 8.45am. Went to the main door and pulled it - cannot open, push it - cannot open also, pull push pull push - also can't. Then one aunty and uncle from far shouted at me what i want which directed me to another door where the company is. ha!

Supervisor was not around today and there was nothing for us to do and i meant really nothing to do. 9am - 12.45pm was just stoning, playing games with my handphone in the conference room. My itp partners went to lala land man. ha! then started smsing Mark, Linus, Cindy & Kelly, whinning to them how bored is over here. ha! i kinda dozed off for 30 mins or so too.

12.45pm time for lunch man. A china guy brought us to the canteen. Lucikly his china-ish accent isnt that bad, kinda understood what he said. After lunch time to sleep/stone again for 1 hour and finally... some work to do.

Went to help on the packaging of the printer moulded parts. seat there pack pack pack, pack pack pack and more packs + some chatting with the china guy. Packed like 248 parts. I don't wana do this kinda crappy stuffs after i graduate man. Study so much come all do this is like wtf? Please! something more professional can?

5.45pm, back to home. Was deciding whether should i try walking home or take bus home. Conclusion - walk home. Took 40 mins. It was such a win win win suitation loh. Take bus must go to yishun/woodlands 1st then must transfer bus/mrt home, waste money and time taken roughly the same or even longer. Wait for bus (10 mins) + Bus ride to woodlands/yishun (10 mins) + wait for bus (10 mins) + bus ride to home (10 mins) = 40 mins +++. ha! Hence decided to jog home everyday estimated like 15 - 20 mins only? sports gear everyday. Treat as if regular jogging to shape back my fitness and pre-advanced trainning for poly 50, clarke quey 20 and SMRT challenge? Ha!

sleeping den

Being sick non stop sucks

2008-02-09T13:17:00.000+08:00

Sucks being sick during CNY. sick and resick. fk it. From flu and cold to diarrhoea, fever and lost of appetite. Took 2 days off from CNY hong bao collection including today. Spending almost whole day lying on bed. Shit becomes shitty urinal.

I think i got phobia from the fondue and muddy pie from coffe club already. everytime i thought of it sends me a nausea feeling. so next time no more of this 2 shitty thing alrights? remember.

hope tmr will be better else i will call off myself from the gl gathering. fk it.

I am backkkk with pictures

2008-02-06T02:20:00.001+08:00

Its been long since i last post. Sorry for those who are waiting if theres any. Ahh... relieve.. exams are over not too long ago. Been so stress like Ughhhh. I bet i kinda lose some significant weight which is sacred to me mannnnn. I prolong my sick for a period of time too.. like a month or so - before exams kinda lazy, during exams.. whatever.. studies 1st. Finally after exams the doc manage to earn my money. Ha! Doc said my immune system is BAD and prescribe immunity booster pills and common flu medicine. Medicines are effective.

Today was great during CLS reunion dinner and gathering at coffee club with GLs. took like 60 odd pictures. If only i use the anti shake function the images will be better. argh.. whatever. Posting up some goody pics, some pics which i enjoy real much. Enjoy! even if u dont want to.

Simply love this pic. Best-est-est-est. Shang Hai Tan poses man! so splendid. <3>

Horrible smiles - 2 freaking gays. Ha!

I am sorry! this is the best pic i have for u two as a "couple". freaking lens stained with oil. argh.

Lawrence & Kelly

Do they ever get bored?

Mark & Meiyu

Marry me? Flowers for sale?

Edmund & Angela

Its been hard on their kids. Sigh. Welfare

Linus & Charlotte

Freaking bo chap and drunken "husband" Ha! That was a pose afterall, requires alot of effort k?!. ahahahha

Huat Jin & Cindy

Ladies cant act naturally in guys urinal.

MUDDY PIE @ COFFE CLUB

freaking bigg

CHOCOLATE FONDUE @ COFFEE CLUB

Addictive - addiction

2007-12-28T15:32:00.000+08:00

smodnar. sti daer sdrawkcab.

2007-11-26T23:41:00.000+08:00

Sympathy - 5 singaporeans. Was reading the newspaper about the incident again during lesson, feeling for the victim themselves and the ones they left behind. The weird thing was i dozed off during lesson and i dreamt about his last moments - I was a third party watching him in despair. Gasping for air when there isnt any, panic, his last bubbles and final few gurping movement. So real it was. It might seem stupid or made up but yeah, this is it.

cruel. cruel fate. why do ppl gotta die just like that. i really do hope it would not happen to anyone whom i know. yeah

pray that they would cross the otherside peacefully.

tmr quiz. the "good" old routine.

your features

2007-11-24T17:23:00.000+08:00

This 2 weeks things had been revolving so fast, denying even the last bit of our time - slowing down, serenity. Finally got the time to blog after 20 odd days. What should i blog about..

Oh ya. Mr Ho gave me a place under him in a polymer compnay at jurong island for ITP - was chatting with him on MSN back then. He said that company was kinda good which had like 6 months bonus last year. Ha! One of our class girls is gonna attach with me there, i know who you are but i aint wana disclose it here yet. - just in case its isnt finalise. I doubt she wants to be with me. LOL

Poor paula - burp right into her face. She gotta wash her face hard now else she gonna get more pimples.

You - you move on before i did? did you just move on with the grey city or straying within just like me? if i didnt act as the fool as my role. when we were so blind - maybe me, i was the one. if i happen to bump into you again.

All good things - Nelly Furtado

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is dandy
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.

Blog

2007-11-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

Changed my blog skin a few days back. The 'Heros' theme blog skin ain't suit me, so yea - to something simple yet dainty in a manner or so.

To my amazement my tagbaord is still kinda surviving =/ Litong your tag was so unexpected. Didnt expect that you still visit my blog even though it rot many light years ago. Ha! Looks like your are the first one who realise i change my blog skin. CONGRATS ha! duh.

Hectic schedule - the quiz, reports and assignments kept rolling in. Tomorrow is Deepavali - ain't got the time to go for the fiery run tmr, gotta study for PMAI quiz. Ha!

Intercons Cap's Ball so far was smooth sailing. Hope we will win SMA in semis and SPSU in finals. Unknown concoction of the team which yields.

Random

2007-09-25T19:45:00.000+08:00

You stole my heart and did not return it back

Went to school at 10am and for goodness sake i didnt know that class was cancelled not until i call cass. Went back home to slack an hour before heading to school again. Wasted 2 hours of my life travelling. Shiet.

Lesson was funny. Alan got owned by the lecturer with his 3Ds - No disrupt, disturb and distract. The new female indian lecturer was not bad, funny things happened. Ha! Oh god oh god, i guess i am the first student recognized by her.

Cass must be a happy girl now, look at her tag. Ha! Told her got someone say she beautiful in MSN then she was so happy until the stage when she typed everything in CAPS. Miss "tom yum ". But i still cant figure out why. Someone give me enlightment please.

I got so much urge in me now to promote frisbee.

Oh ya, my team photo of the sg ultimate tourney.

Pre school start

2007-09-23T22:54:00.001+08:00

Its been the same, just like the last day we parted. I guess you never knew but i wish you do. If there were to be a chance - i will love you more than yesterday and twice as much as tomorrow.

Oh god. School starting tmr. 10am - 6pm. Shagged schedule. Oh my. Time to rush for results again. Shaggified. Oh dear. Whats the real deal?

Results Results Results

2007-09-12T09:18:00.000+08:00

Got my results via e-mail yesterday while waiting to game with Linus. Why are some people sensitive to their results, fearing to open your results to others? During year 1 sem 1, even when i got a shitty GPA of 1.6 i also dun give a big darn bout it. Those ppl you know who you are. Ha! Heres my result.

Singapore Polytechnic 2007/2008S1 Examination Results

Student ID: 0621616
Name: BEH HUAT JIN

Module Code - Credit Unit - Grade
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CP4036 - 4 - A
ET002S - 2 - A
CP4071 - 4 - B
CP4100 - 2 - B
CP4079 - 4 - B+
CP4094 - 2 - B+
CP4101 - 5 - B+
MS2227 - 3 - C+

SEMESTER GPA: 3.385
CUMULATIVE GPA: 2.618

ALLOWED TO CONTINUE IN THE COURSE

hahaha i am allowed to be continue in the course DUH

Well.. not quite satisfy with my results. Was targeting a hit on the 3.5 mark and at least 3As. Oh well.. as least i improve. Ha! Okies now heres the catch - I gotta score at least 3.5 for the next 3 sems to pull my cumm. GPA to around 3.1 OR 3.8 for my cumm. GPA to 3.4. My study life is so miserable comparing to others. I gotta constantly only push and up my results while others could afford abit of setback.

Ultimate Frisbee Singapores Open

2007-09-10T11:04:00.000+08:00

This is our song and you are my dream.

2 days of Ultimate Frisbee tourney ended with my skin sunkissed - perhaps a little over burnt. 6 matches - 3 wins and 3 loses, 20 hours on field, several injuries, some spectaculars made and countless experience gained from team DRATSS.

Saturday

Dratss v RMIT (Vietnam): 8-6
Dratss v Boracay Dragons (Philippines): 8-12
Dratss v Lagi Shiok (Singapore): 7-6
Dratss v Chinese Taipei: 8-12

Sunday

Dratss v Filipinas (Philippines): 8-12
Dratss v SMU (Singapore): 13-4

List out your top 5 birthday presents that you wish for:

1.it has always been you for so long - one wish is enough

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who tag you are?
alan, angela, catherine and cindey

2. Your relationship with him/her is?
alan - friends, angela - friends, catherine - friends, cindey - friends

3. Your 3 impressions of him/her?
alan:
UBER fast digestive system
somewhat of a bisexual
roti prata - plaster

angela:
sound amplifier boosting rate X3
what my wet clothes hang on every sunny day
never early or on time. ha!

catherine:
brave - braver than some guys
the girl next door or maybe not?
if there is one more impression

cindey:
sadist - aint got any clue what is pain.
sound amplifier boosting rate X3.5
guys becareful of her. ha!

4. The most memorable thing he/she had done for you?
alan: taking over as a sports com MC
angela: term me as ba kut teh
catherine: bringing me to toliet. ha!
cindey: abuse me just like her toy

5. The most memorable words he/she had said to you?
alan: plaster
angela: ba kut teh
catherine: you want me accompany you to toliet?
cindey: laaoooo goooonnnggg -.- makes me puke

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
alan: eat plaster with him <3
angela: sell bamboo stick with her <3
catherine: kick franko away and be her GL partner <3
cindey: get her a whole makeover <3

7. If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
to love me and like me feel the way i do in the past.

8. If he/she becomes your enemy you will?
i don't mind. i got too many friends. life goes on

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
it dosen't matter, theres hardly any reason why

10.The most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
alan: watch him suffer in IC =x
angela: meet up with her with xue ting
catherine: watch her suffer in IC =x
cindey: stop her from annoying me

11.Your overall impression of him/her is?
why is this stupid question repeated

12.How you think people around you will feel about you?
i don't really care but i guess they all love me

13.The character(s) you love of yourself is/are?
abilty to communicate well with ppl?

14.On the contrary, the character(s) you hate of yourself is/are?
there is nothing to hate

15.The most ideal person you want to be is?
my parents

16.Pass this quiz to 10 people.
1.you
2.my father
3.my mother
4.mark
5.angela
6.azhar
7.kelly
8.mella
9.catherine
10.cindey

17.Who is no.6 having relationship with?
me, jie wei, alan, zi rong and all the blackies

18.Is no.9 a male or female?
female

19.If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
no.10 aint have any capabilities to snatch no.7 from no.4

20.How about no.8 and 5?
i cant imagine it

21.What is no.2 studying about?
how to be a good golfer

22.When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
a few seconds ago

23.What kind of music band does no.8 like?
ain't got any clue?

24.Does no.1 has any siblings?
one.

25.Will you woo no.3?
shes my mum for goodness sake. i don't incest

26.Is no.4 single?
nah. attched to no.7

27.What's the surname of no.5?
yang

29.Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
i guess so

30.Where is no.2 studying at?
nowhere

31.Talk something casually about no.1?
shes great

32.Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
i can't. i don't wana die so early

33.Where does no.9 live at?
under my bed

34.What color does no.4 like?
transparent

35.Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
they don't know who each other is

36.Does no.7 likes no.2?
if that is the case, no.3 will kill her. shes too young for him

37.How do you get to know no.2?
eversince i was born

38.Does no.1 have any pets?
i don't think so

39.Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
no? LOL

THIS QUIZ IS FK! WASTE 1 HOUR OF MY LIFE. -.-

Current Matters

2007-09-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

Here we go again

Second games trial for interaction camp ended.

Felt cheated upon knowing that the camp was postpone to 3 weeks later which is the first week of school reopen. Cutting of water and electricity supply and visits to the convention center. DUH! - why not any other dates but clashing with ours? Cant say anything, no choice. Ha! At least the camp was not cancelled.

-Edited-
Actually wana blog detail on this but realising that some year 1 participants may come across this post.

Station games was pretty smooth for our group. Except for the indoor game which was lacking in manpower. The problem was identified by us to Azhar (Bangala). Bangala promised to chip in another 10 manpower - ALL BLACKS. LOL. Tried to communicate more with Rutriran. Sometimes it gets very boring, lonely and irritating to be the only person of the own race in the group. Ha!

J is for Jedi!
Jedi Jedi Jedi Knights.
K is for Knights!
Jedi Jedi Jedi Knights.

Part lyrics of the cheer by the GLs.
All the best GLs!

So tired after games trial. Fell asleep in MRT on the way home, almost miss my sembawang station. Woke up suddenly when the train almost came to a stop in sembawang station upon hearing a word 'Sembawang' from someone subconciously. Lucky.

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Singapore Opens (Ultimate Frisbee Tourney) is coming in no time - 8th Sept. 4 more days! Been training so long with Dratss on it. Really do wish that we will outperform our quality of playing of ourselves in the weekly trainings. Teams from countries all over the world competiting, will be an eyeopening experience. Disc in play is all yours, take it down hard.

1973 - James Blunt

Simona
You're getting older
The journey's been
Etched on your skin

Simona
I guess I know this
We seemed so strong
We've been there and gone

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
It was 1973
singing "Here we go again"

Simona
Wish I was sober
So I could see clearly now
The rain has gone

Simona
I guess it's over
My memory plays our tune
The same old song

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
It was 1973
singing "Here we go again"

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
It was 1973
singing "Here we go again"

I will call you up everyday Saturday night
And we both stayed out 'til the morning light
And we sang, "Here we go again"
And though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
It was 1973
singing "Here we go again"

and though time goes by
I will always be
In a club with you
It was 1973

If you do still
This is what i mean
Only if you know.

Roses are red, violets are blue.

2007-08-28T18:48:00.000+08:00

I just like the way you are

Bored, went blog hopping.

Sometimes it gets so intresting in getting involve with people blog matters. Your blog portrays what kind of person you are.

Now i understand why Mark hate twits because they are just so F up. For goodness sake. The way you type to express yourself, some people ought to learn. Screwed.

Tagboards and comments area are such good tools for kids. Flaming, swear and curse anonymous. Its just so funny when people are so bo ji and have to resort to such matters.

Roses are red and violets are blue
Honey is sweet but not as sweet as you

Imeem playlist song number 5. Singapore mix is fabulous.

Random.

2007-08-26T21:58:00.000+08:00

Thank god for giving me parents whom born me with good livers to neutralise alcohol. Ha!
Yesterday BBQ was fun chatting around. Celebrated Edmund, Angela and one year one guy birthday. Poor guys - not girls got thrown and went swimming with the fishes. Well.. Life goes on. Time past fast, aint have time to truely enjoy alcohol. Have to go off soon as soon as 20 shots was taken. -_-

Actually wanted to change to plain blog skin but this blogskin caught my eye. Hence 'Lack of expression' isnt used.

Blog Resurrection Cum Belated Birthday Esther =]

2007-08-24T21:04:00.000+08:00

Exams over!

Hope all the efforts that i seeded will yield results in return. Mentally drained, physically weak - Could even fell asleep yesterday while searching for blog skin.

Thinking of changing blog skin to something which is plain and simple and the theme will be 'Lack of Expression'. Desired blog skins are hard to find for guys, perhaps i should start one from scratch but i ain't have photoshop. duh.

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Due to exams, neglected Esther birthday on 21st Aug. Sorry for postponing the birthday celebration to friday which is today. A bikini was her birthday present from Guan Ting and I and a treat from us at Cafe Cartel. Do hope you enjoy it =] Esther said the cheese cake she bakes is way better than the one sold in Cafe Cartel - well.. i doubt it. Ha! =/ Almost got choke on my own food - aint know that cripsy coating could fly direct into throat.

Went to talk cock, sing song and play mahjong at void deck while waiting for the time to come for Guan Ting to meet her cousin. I manage to score a DA SAN XI and left them broke.

I guess i gonna have blueblack marks all over me when i bathe.

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Tmr is BBQ gathering at Linus place. What fun will be expecting us? Sunday is Frisbee training, can't wait, time to get back on fit track! Previous 2 trainings did not go due to exams. Boohooo Sun tanning!

Whatever.

2007-07-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

What is the purpose of your life living in this world?

Big Bucks. Whats yours?

Tomorrow is poly 50 competition. Simply wish that we will be able to hit the targeted mark. All out for tmr, no injuries please.

Week 15 is bullshit week - most assigment submission week.

Whatever.

2007-07-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

I've got people in my ear
telling me these crazy things that I dont want to know
Fuck Yall.

Poly 50, sports fiesta, intercons - captain ball, ultimate frisbee. Injury rate faster than recovery rate - i need top condition. FOR THE WIN.

I need new blood in Ultimate Frisbee.

Cassy traumatize me in the morning upon receving her sms. Pain in my eye. Self esteem to the brim. Ha!

Neck bone hurts, as if my head gonna roll. Remember me if i die.

Report days are over. Greatly appreciate people whom have help me.

Tmr poly 50 training again. Remember me again if i die.

Play with my desires.

Whatever.

2007-06-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

The chain which meant so much.

Mella's Big Butt (MBB) is BACK due to popular demand. =X

I hope she ain't gonna kill me when she see me. =/

I am proud to annouce that i beaten alan in chinese chess today for the first time. BAH! Won him 2 rounds. Wanted to make it 3 in a row but he got my killing spree ended. DARN! Ha! Alan, the young surpass the old. [: Ha! Joking. You are one tough guy when it comes to chinese chess.

Photos to showcase after the match.

Today Poly50 training was good. Run the actual route, timed ourselves as a team. 12 mins odd for 40 rounds. Personally its a good job done for the first training in the actual route. Good to see people pushing towards to their limits - Great Effort. Hope that full strength for both teams can make it for next week training onwards. 2 weeks left before the actual run.

My old knee injuries are giving problems again.

Non Budget

2007-06-24T17:59:00.000+08:00

Never realise how important you are.

Non Budget Event is over. Inspired to blog by mella comment on tag board. Ha! Non budget event was pretty fun. Sad thing was it rained during games. BOO! Ha!

Night trek was so darn funny. People walk in groups of 4 while we walk in group of 12 =X. Throughout the whole night trek was full of noise. Ha! The big and small gambling game was funny. I was at the other game when they call me to go over because its a gambling game. Ha! They ask me to choose big or small. Then i told them mine very BIG so choose all the way big! Then we won all the rounds. How lucky i am =/

One of the stations during the night trek. Wanabe Ghost.

Look at the photo - theres an extra hand circle in blue. =/

I looked really white.

Why is there a bangala at the bottom right hand corner of the photo? Ha!

PHOTO DELETED

So busy with reports. Can hardly breath. Save me.

I got my hair cut, my field boots bought, my new ear piece, my phone software updated but it still lags.

I still need my hair to be dye.

Losing you is the last thing.

random

2007-06-18T20:17:00.000+08:00

Friends are like Bras, close to your heart and there for support - Intresting quote from one of the MSN nick. Ha!

Current condition - physically weak. Went for Ultimate Frisbee training at Bishan Park yesterday, guidance from professional players. Learned alot of new stuffs in terms of throwing, catching, certain drills, cuts and what most important - formation for the game itself (horizontal stack)

Got myself quite alot of injuries everywhere due to barefoot play, a dive and got step by others. Worth it after all. No more samba frisbee. Most likely gonna invest in a pair of boots to enhance the jam break tatic in field play. Ha! Can't wait for the next training and injuries to heal up.

Any readers intrested to tag along. MSN me. Ha!

This whole week is pack with activities, how i am ever gonna complete my reports and problem base learning assigments. No close seniors = Good game. =/

Pictures

2007-06-16T20:04:00.000+08:00

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

13/06/07 Wednesday - DingDangs gathering at Edmund's house

DingDangs except Lawrence in it.

Spastic people in the house. XD

Mahjong makes the world goes round. DingDangs Yuan Shou at work. =X

Ghostly figures of Bob and Betty - the long lost forgotten. Ha! Actually its mark and charlotte.

MeiYu and me holding the Xiao Ding Dang toy from the cake.

Realise quite a few people post about the gathering details already. So i decided to skip it. Ha! Enjoyable day.

8/6/07 Friday - Celebration with Esther and Guan Ting.

Guan Ting and me.

Esther and me.

Esther and Guan Ting.

Wonderful buddies. Ha! [:

Elaine and Cass ask me why did i treat Est and GT so different from them.

Too bad ah, Cass and Elaine. If life is fair. Why do roses have thorns?

19/05/07 Saturday - Singapore River Raft Race

Before changing for judging.

After changing. Ha! Linus (Right) got the death aura. =/

SRRR Crew (CLS Club)

Feel so naked with that shirt on =/

2007-06-15T21:26:00.000+08:00

You said.

Gonna blog on the gathering DingDangs had during Wednesday when i receive all the photos. Gonna be my first post with pictures. Gah!

Psst! Are you ready?
You ain't got money u take your broke arse home.
I don't wana take my broke arse home.

you put it

2007-06-11T21:39:00.000+08:00

From my hands I could give you something that I made.

Decided to quit Granado Espada after much consideration. 65 levels of pure endurance, hard work and all the hours of grinding. Been 3 days since i last touch it, if thats not the case i would be level 69 by now - who cares? No one ever did.

Some things in life ain't realise how important they are - not until present.

The outcomes of what i seek isn't what i wanted but yet became the closet things in life.

I drown myself, indulging in other strings which relieves the tension. - no one ever knew i guess.

Wednesday! Mahjong, steamboat, talk cock, WWE ... etc - DingDangs at Edmund house. [: Splendid.

Thursday! Prawn catching with 2B/22. How much can we catch. Ha!

Rain money on me.

Random

2007-06-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

If life is fair. Why do roses have thorns? - Emo Elmo (Crap Shit)

You see it could have been me instead of you
It could have been me if I wanted to
But it wasn't
So we'll have to face the truth

Makes my day

2007-06-09T18:06:00.000+08:00

Had a wonderful day. [:

8 June 2007

A post specially for Esther and Guan Ting.

You both makes my day. Laying an ambush outside my class after school, surprising me. [: Using meeting at Ang Mo Kio MRT station at a decoy and with Jie Wei help to check on my whereabouts which i thought Jie Wei contatced me cause he wanted to meet me. Ha! U gurls are better at this now.

Ahh. The rose was such a Pai Seh thing la. Stupid. BOO! No more face liao. Lets skip this part. Ha! =X

Proceed to AMK to have our dinner at Fish&CO. [: Shortly after getting our seats. Est and GT said they needed to visit the ladies. Actually they headed to the stuffs to put the cake as their place which intially i aint had any clue. I thought they went to change pads. ROFL =X

Ordered a Seafood pizza, a blah blah set for 2, and drinks - Mermaid Freeze and Sharkie Freeze (Woah! This kinda freeze is really DARN BIG la! Its smth like a beer jug. =/) So much to eat! Eat until we lay there waving our white flags. Seafood day =x Ha!

They surprise me once more. Suddenly most of the stuffs in the shop gather around my table with a cake. Requesting me to stand on top of a chair with a lighted sparkle and annoucing my birthday to the rest of the customers then sang me a birthday song(Fish &Co style). I was like "WTF?!" got no place to hide my face. Extremely Pai Seh! Then one of the stuffs took a photo of us.

Lets eat again - cake. LOL! Delicious but could not eat finish all of it. Bloated. Ha! Moments later one of the stuff came to the table again to pass me the photo sticken on a card wishing me happy birthday. So splendid of them, good service. Hehs.

Thanks lots Esther and Guan Ting. [:

Dun small air esther and work on your legs not anywhere else.

Guan Ting need to seat properly! Buafuaha!

Looking forward to the next gathering. [:

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Thanks everybody - DCP 1B/24 (old class), DCP 2B/22, People of CLS club and Mr Ho.

Received so many sms of best wishes - reply until phone low batt. Ha! Sorry Ding Dangs for not being able to meet u all after school. Some otehr day okies?! [:

8.30am - late for prac lesson. Step into workshop and saw Jasmine and she went "HUH! Birthday big ah?! Can late for lesson ah?!" Ha! Sorry la. So many people used this pharse on me sia throughout the day. Geez -_- Birtdhay means u all can bully me ah?! Ha! BOO!

After SPM quiz, 2B/22 and Mr Ho celebrated for me in lecture hall. A sign putting no food and drinks but no one cares. ROFL. Cake, potato chips and agar agar. Ha! =/

Thanks Mr Ho for sponsoring.

Thanks again everybody once again! Rock my world. XD

Ps: Edited version of post. As the previous version wasnt in a state of mind to blog.

QUIZ QUIZ QUIZ

2007-05-31T11:29:00.001+08:00

Your champion ally has fallen.

Maths and QAS over.

Next week quiz - SPM and GMOULD

Maths was horrible, good game for sure. =/

QAS was desperate for time. Worst part - one digit of my calculator suddenly went 'Poof!' and gone. Got to borrow calculator from Mr Ho halfway into the quiz. Hope there ain't any careless mistakes.

Non-budget event is getting closer, can't wait!

Ding Dangs [:

Breakneck

2007-05-25T09:58:00.000+08:00

I don't wana run away.

Drowning myself just like before.

CLS non-budget event coming up. 17th - 18th June. Form a team of 8 - 10 inclusive of both year 1 and 2. $10 per person.

After much consideration, our list of team members are - Edmund, Mark, Angela, Charlotte, Mei Yu, Kelly, Jia Sheng, Dom, Emmunel and myself. [:

In a blink, e-learning week is almost over - 90% game, 10% study. Ha! Today, its time to study for QAS. I wana score high high =/

How would u ever know

Revival.

2007-05-21T21:47:00.000+08:00

Blog been rotting for the past few days.

Time for some revival.

Been busy playing Granado Espada - a new mmorpg. Spending several hours daily grinding mobs non-stop just to pit my level among the rest. Ended up neglecting my blog. Ha!

Sorry to those whom had tagged me but yet for me to reply.
Sorry to those whom msn me but which i had given late replies.

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SRRR (Singapore River Raft Race) finally ended. The hard work we had invested into was rewarded 3rd placing in both catergories - design and fastest raft. Good Job to everyone. [:

Congrats on erastus on getting 3rd for walking on water event too.

Seems like 3 is our lucky number. Ha!

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Yesterday F&H was fun. Linus was a good tag team partner. Ha! First station was Chinatown, got lost in Chinatown trying to find the places we should visit. Stranded in Chinatown for 2 hours! - Lost so much precious time.

Next station was little india. Little India was easy. Ha! Scored full marks for the games - Pick up sticks and throw the marble. Ha! We decided to take off our shoes and run bear foot for the rest of the race - experiencing the cave man lives. Ha!

Bonus round was at Esplanade. Esplanade was tough. Running around bear footed on tar ground is one crazy thing. Linus and I was having fun doing it. Ha!

We did not get into top 10 for the race. Quite dissapointed. But well, we had fun. Ha! [:

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Sigh. Need to go back school tmr for e-learning for Gmould module. Have to wake at 8am. I need more sleep. Tsk -_- After e-learning its gonna be hell then, when all the reports, quizes and assignments floods my life.

Gotta study for the upcoming QAS quiz on week 7. Hope i will do well for it. Ha!

Hearts are lonely hunters

DotA stance

2007-05-15T20:13:00.000+08:00

Beyond godlike - as a team.

Trusting and forgiving - essential parts.

Alone, ain't allow stress surpass calmness leading to improper judgement or harsh decision.

Yesterday DotA match lead me back to the proper track which it seems that i had detoured far away from. - After the match, i mean.

My mind was so stress before the DotA match starts due to people ain't replying to my inhouse match calls in MSN. Ended up playing public match.

Lose faith in Mark in early game upon an unsucessful attempt of slaying the opponent, ended up myself got killed. - His mum talk to him during this crucial point. Mid game frag was 1 / 4 - Pain in my eye. Can't farm, underlevel! Tsk. Mark apologise to me during in game but i ignored. Subconciously i was de-motivating the whole team - the team was near to losing.

An unexpected twist of fate ( faith will be a better word to replace ) - we clear team Scourge, a complete WIPEOUT on the successful gang. That boosted our moral and we went BAM BAM BAM. Alas, we turn the tide - won! [: Nice feeling.

My apologies to Mark, Linus and Ivan for the sucky attitude in the match. I shouldn't have lose my faith in you guys. Teamwork always pays off - with proper planning. [: Good job people.

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Uponing waiting for the first lesson in the morning saw Zirong. Was chatting to him about poly 50 and stuffs then i realise i brought everything except my shoes. Ha! Geez.

No shoes, no run.

Skip maths lesson.

So went to club after school to help out with the Singapore River Raft Race thingy. Went to Clementi with Alan and Mel (mellisa) to purchase items needed for SRRR. Long bamboo poles catches people attention. =/

Went to search for cupboards around the school with Mel and that guy ( Sports com ass. head ).

Started to make the weapons for the raft.

7 plus went home.

Lazy to write in detail. Ha!

From zero to hero.

Random

2007-05-14T22:42:00.000+08:00

Random

Played monopoly with Cass alone in club during break time. She go scared i cheat and teal money from bank lop. - Cass got paranoid after albert won her by cheating in the past. Ha! She owned me badly - smth like 3k worth of cash and property more than mine! All hail Cassy the Mighty. Ha!

When to club after school. Had fun chatting with the clubbers - Mel, Alven, Kenneth, Alan, Sheng Chang and those whom i had left out. Its a nice feeling just to seat there and talk cock for an hour odd.

Got my hair cut uponing returning home. The aunty is as good as before, as patient as ever. Enjoyed my 30 odd mins off hair cut. So pai seh, went there with wax on - kept telling her sorry, dun mind ah? Ha! No one mend my hair as good as her other than me =X She got the way i wanted it. Ha!

However i think she did a mistake - over cut on one part of my hair. I can hear the sisscors 'siz! siz! siz!' then sunddenly "SIZZXXZZ!" looked at the mirror and realised that she over cut my left side. She mended it after all. [:

Post more tmr. Not in a state of mind to blog properly.

2007-05-12T23:13:00.000+08:00

My chatlog with Mr Ho yesterday through Rose msn account. Ha! I swear i ain't believe its Mr Ho but the truth was. =X

Purple: Mr Ho

Black: Huat Jin

Mix it.

2007-05-11T22:27:00.000+08:00

Twice i saw.

You turned back once.

Bleed once, dream twice.

Measureable, not.

Up in heaven, i sung.

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Waiting for people can be so painful. Went to club at 4.50pm waiting for people to run with me. - begging in vain. Those who wana run ain't there yet, the rest rejected, dejected.

At last manage to get Wanwei, Xin Yu, Edmund to run with me! Ha! - Thanks lots! We ran one round around SP. Wanwei was reluctant at first but she obliged me still - she wanted to run stadium instead. Successfully completed the round. Hehs, good job ah! We climbed in and out of gate 1 to start and finish our run as it was locked. Ha! First time climbing over Singapore Poly gates. =X

Got cheated by ZiRong and gang! Argh! Claiming that my team with linus got kicked out from F&H due to overwhelming respond and that we are the only 2 men team in the whole race. I really thought it was the case man. Asking around in msn for Mr Ho number to clarify with him.

End up Myuk msn and said it was all a joke. Geez! April Fool is over! It was ZiRong's idea - his backdoor gonna hurt real bad, in out in out, let it bleed about and do the hooky pooky and turn yourself around. Ha!

Mr Ho msn me through Rose msn account sia. I thought must be one of the jokers again. Darn funny the chat log! Smth like " If you are Mr Ho? then what nick name did i give u? " , " Mr Ho dunnoe how to hahaha in MSN de la. " I will upload the chatlog tmr for all to enjoy! ROFL! Laughing my arse off. :D

I am SORRY Mr Ho! I ain't poliet cause i thought u was some joker posing as u! Ha!

Bleed.

2007-05-10T23:01:00.000+08:00

Let it bleed

-Random!

Roses are brown,
Violets are green,
I am tired,
So are you.

When we are so colourblind.

Colour blindness only affects a single eye of the certain colour. There is a likelyhood of inheritant for males but not females. - Just some things i learn from my module, the art and science of colours.

Unexplainable

2007-05-09T18:37:00.000+08:00

Why is the world created perfectly?

Are our lives just a game to the unexplainable lords whom control what we are?

Just like computer games were created to control the virtual lives? Take example for The Sims. We are in full control of the character we play. - life, death, marriage, labour, work, sick ... etc. Got bored and tired playing the certain character? - Let it get hungry and watch him got sick and fade away.

Maybe this is the same case why humans die too? What kind of deaths we will experince is determine by how the unexplainable wants it. - Cancer? Accident? Peacefully?

A whole new game surface into the market - Dump The Sims away and enjoy the new one.

Maybe this is the same case why dinosaurs extinct? The unexplainable got tired of controlling dinosaurs and we were created. The old one must be eliminated to enjoy the new one. - Maybe one day this will happen to us too?

Get what i mean?

Our lives are scripted.

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Jia Wen won me in Reversi re-match! BOO! This time she really win me. Pei Fu!

Settled some river raft thingy today- Upgraded! Yet to complete.

Obliged to play captains ball, because of Angela. I ain't a pang seh kia. Just like i said - got people but no court. Thats why i am reluctant.

Went home with Rose today. Was talking about life - why is it created perfectly. A woman heard our conversation and replied "God created us". Rose and I think that shes a christian. Ha!

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Way Back Into Love - Hugh Grant, Drew Barrymore

I've been living wih a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need 'em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that's it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Luck

2007-05-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday once, today again, what about tomorrow?

Expected the unexpected - The suitation, what more can i say about it [:

Makes my day`.

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Celebrated Ching Yee birthday. Met up at fc5 after school. Mosquitoes attack Cassy and me while waiting. - Got bitten on my wrist and swelled horribly for a mosquito bite, while cassy got 3 on her legs! Ha!

Went to Jurong Entertainment Center Pizza Hut to celebrate. Got myself a baked rice - as usual, like i always do. Albert and Hardi was entertaining us with their jokes, laughing our arse off. OH YA! Cassy and I became Albert tits for no appearant reason in school today. - got so much laughter out from it. Ha!

Took class photos after having Pizza Hut. Yearning to receive the pictures soon.

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Got in-house DotA matches after i reached home - 4 v 4, 2 matches. Mark, Sheng Chang, Linus and me teamed up very well, most suitations was handled perfectly - hope this carry on. Won both matches. - The feeling of owning are beyond words.